Three years later and I am back to where it all started - the best New Year's resolution I ever had. Fifty-two leaves ended because I did not know what the next chapter was going to be. I thought I would just keep blogging and talking about the things that were inspiring me. But without the accountability piece, the writing dwindled off and I moved on with my life. Many incredible things have happened since then, all of which I contribute to the year I spent getting out of my comfort zone, taking risks, and committing to be a better version of myself. All of which lead me back here. A few years ago, fifty-two leaves became a mentality for me - each week I sought out with an attitude to try something new - and it worked.
Why do we ever stop doing something that works?
I stopped because that was what made sense to me at the time. The year was over, I completed my goal, it was time to move on. The end. That's how my brain works. Check something off the list and move on to the next. It's really all kind of ironic. Fifty-two leaves was created to "get out of" the order of things and then it ended for similar reasons as to why it started, because that was what was "supposed to happened". I reverted back to the certainty that makes me feel safe and all to often gets in the way of being the best version of myself.
Today, I'm bringing what worked back. Back to putting myself out there and blogging about it.
As the New Year came around it got me thinking about my goals, what I've accomplished, and where I want to go next. It brought me here. To the space that taught me so much about myself. I've decided that fifty-two leaves doesn't need to end - it can exist for as long as I can write - because growth is never ending. Spending a year getting out of my comfort zone created opportunities, new relationships, and incredible spiritual freedom. I've realized that I want to consciously live my life like that forever.
So here's to my latest leaf. Starting from the beginning and continuing to do what works.
Fifty-two Leaves
and everything else beyond
Wednesday, January 13, 2016
Monday, December 31, 2012
Leaf Fifty-two: It's Only the Beginning
It’s hard to
know where to start as the feeling of accomplishing what I set out to do this
past year is a bit surreal. The time has flown by, but the transformation of my
soul is one that will last a lifetime. One of the greatest lessons fifty-two
leaves has taught me is that living wholeheartedly is a never ending journey.
Rather than fulfilling a goal and moving on to the next, I have established a
lifestyle that requires consistent faith, self-exploration, and connection with
those around me. I feel an overwhelming sense of spirituality at this time, something
that I never knew before. The gratitude for life that holds my heart allows me
to see the meaning in each day, showing me how to connect to the moments that
are worth living for. I will forever look back on 2012 and smile, for it was
the year that I discovered who Ash truly is and what she is capable of. Thank
you to all who supported me, inspired my writing, and came along for the ride.
Today, I am
recognizing where I started, as it set the foundation for what took place this
past year. If anyone is to take anything from my journey, I hope they remember
the words of Dr. Brené Brown, “Wholehearted living is about engaging in our
lives from a place of worthiness. It means cultivating the courage, compassion,
and connection to wake up in the morning and think, No matter what gets done and how much is left undone, I am enough”.
We are all enough, today, right now. Worthy of love, both for ourselves and
others. The hardest thing I think we will ever overcome in this lifetime is the
battle that takes place within ourselves. It was not until I decided to love
me, my imperfections and all, that I was able to truly live. One lesson that I bring
consistently into my work, is that of self-love. From personal experience, I
know that until we have a loving relationship with our own soul, we are unable
to truly know that type of relationship elsewhere.
“It’s the rule of life that everything you have always wanted comes the
very second you stop looking for it!” –Unknown
Before fifty-two leaves, I searched for Ash through external
experiences. If someone could love me, than that meant I was worthy. I was
continuously let down, feeling worse with each rejection, whether it was a
significant other, family member, or friend, I depended on their feedback for
my own self-love. One of the greatest things to come from fifty-two leaves is
the relationship I now have with myself. It may sound a bit narcissistic, but I
believe with my whole heart that we are only able to love others as much as we
love ourselves. The compassion I have for my faults and mistakes have helped me
overcome much shame. It is taught me how to teach others how to cultivate appreciation
for who they are. Most importantly, it has taught me how to love. The moment I
stopped looking for my heart everywhere else and turned inward, I discovered an
everlasting peace.
With that peace, I have been able to cultivate meaning into my life. My relationships
with my family and friends and others around me have never been stronger. I
seek connection for the right reasons, rather than hoping others will tell me I
am “lovable”. Because I know I am worthy, I am able to give incredible
compassion and love to those around me. My work as a therapist has transformed,
allowing me to create an environment for others to heal. I am so humbled by the
experiences of my clients, their strength and the courage they have to share
their stories. I have discovered a love for a man who makes me a better person.
Who challenges me every day, makes me laugh, and has taught me what it means to
truly love another. Dallas gives me hope for relationships, that as we come to
love ourselves we are able to thrive with our partners.
Gratitude is the driving force behind fifty-two leaves. Being grateful,
and seeking out gratefulness, has filled my heart in an invaluable way. The ritual
of practicing gratitude in my life fuels my wholehearted journey. Although my
fifty-two leaves are coming to a close, the spirit that has been created will
continue to live on forever. It takes practice every single day to know that I
am worthy, that I deserve to be loved. Life is full of challenges, ups that
feel so high, and downs that make it seem like the world is falling apart. To
be happy and healthy is to not be free of those downs, it is to realize that we
all have them and if we believe in ourselves, love who we are, we can overcome
anything.
While this seems like the end, for me, it is only the beginning. Tune in
for words to come, I am thinking of titling my next blog…My Wholehearted Life. Happy
New Year!
Saturday, December 29, 2012
Leaf Fifty-one: On My Highway
Last
Saturday, my best friend Lex and I made the 5hour trek from San Diego to Las
Vegas. This wasn’t our first road trip together and it won’t be our last, but
like all the ones that came before, there is no one I would rather have in the
car than her. I blogged about this lovely woman many leaves back, yet, there
will never be enough words to describe how important she has become in my life.
About 7.5 years ago, Lex and I embarked on a journey that forever shaped who we
are as individuals. If you would have asked us back then what was to become of
us, there would be much laughter. We have both grown incredibly, thriving in
life, taking on new challenges, discovering who we are, and always remembering
where we started. So many things have changed since our freshmen year dorm
room, still there is a part embedded in our identity, reigniting each time we
connect again. Lex truly knows the deepest parts of my soul, holding me
accountable for who I am and always believing in me. The friendship we have
with one another is rare. It is powerful on a level that I hope everyone in the
world has the opportunity to encounter in their lives. She is my person, the
one I can call from my darkest corner to be greeted with kind words and an open
heart. Somehow Lex knows how to make everything okay when I seem to think the
world is falling apart. As I begin to wrap up this beautiful fifty-two
expedition, I am so very thankful to be able to share my wholehearted life with
Lex. There is nothing greater in this world than connection with people who
truly love you for you. No matter where we go or what is next, Lex will be
there and I for her.
My title for
this week’s leaf is inspired by the Jason Aldean song “On My Highway”. It
started playing after I left Lex in Las Vegas and was continuing my drive home
to Cedar City. I became captivated by the words as Jason talks about the “highway”
as a metaphor for his life. In the first verse he sings:
On my highway,
the yellow lines
Have disappeared from
time to time
And I've wound up
On the wrong side of the
road
On my
highway, I've gone too fast
Afraid that I might
finish last
I hooked a curve too
hard and lost control
Oh, I never know which
way it's gonna go
But what a feelin'
chasin' the sun
Livin' my life like it's
shot from a gun
Laughin' a little bit
more with every mile
Oh, what a freedom
racin' the wind
Dyin' to know what's
around the next bend
And smilin' as I watch
the years roll by
I'm learnin' how to take
it day by day
On my highway
The highway
metaphor made sense for me. I have lived the life where I have worked hard to
continue on the same road—being perfect, trying not to disappoint anyone, etc.,
etc. It kept me above water for a long time, but it never propelled me to the
surface. Once I started embracing the highway to my heart, the kind of life that
Jason talks about in the song, the surface never seemed closer. There are days
where I need the “yellow lines”, the ones that keep me focused and motivated on
my goals. My favorite days though, are the ones where I let the yellow lines
go. When I throw my clothes around the room, leave my bed unmade, cry because it
feels good, love with my whole heart, make moves on a crowded dance floor,
smile at a stranger, get lost in Dallas’s arms, laugh uncontrollably with my
friends, and have an everlasting faith that everything will be okay. Those are
the moments that make up my highway.
So it only
seems fitting that my road trip home with Lex be titled “On My Highway”, both
literally and figuratively. And also because without Lex who knows what my
highway would look like. One of the greatest blessings that has come from my
wholehearted journey is the deep appreciation I have for the relationships that
are part of my life. Through the good and the bad, I am a better person because
of the individuals that I have encountered in my life, the beautiful
friendships I surround myself with, the love I have for an amazing man and the
graciousness and support I receive from my family. People make my highway of
life much more exciting.
Tuesday, December 18, 2012
Leaves Forty-eight - Fifty
December marks
the final month of my incredible, wholehearted, fifty-two leaf journey. It is crazy how quickly time passes, how much
changes, and how much the same stays. Leaves forty-eight – fifty have been as
exciting as all the others. Enjoy!
Leaf
Forty-eight: A Bizzy Hike
The
beautiful thing about dating such a genuine person is that he tends to surround
himself with pretty fantastic people. One of the many blessings that I have
encountered since meeting Dallas, are his family and friends. Back in August,
his cousin Elizabeth (aka: Bizzy), moved to San Diego to start nursing school.
Her and I instantly hit it off and in the meantime have established such a
refreshing friendship. I enjoy so much
meeting people who have the same regard for life as I do. Bizzy is no doubt one
of the kindest, most loving souls I have met. She values the simple moments and
gives genuinely to others. Naturally, I have gravitated to her company and
admire her ability to manage school, transition to a new city, and fit in a social
life. Like I said, we have become fast friends and enjoy many of the same
activities. I love spending time with people who want to be active and outside,
something I do not take advantage of nearly enough living in San Diego.
A couple
weeks ago, Bizzy and I planned a Friday afternoon hike to Cowles Mountain. The hike has a decent incline, with a
gorgeous 360° view of San Diego once you reach the top. I have done the climb a
couple times, but did not realize until a couple weeks ago how closely located
it is to my work. Needless to say, it something I am going to incorporate monthly.
After a long week and a challenging caseload, exercising with a good friend was
exactly what my mind, body and soul needed. Bizzy is the type of person you can
just be with. I thrive with the people who it is effortless to be present with.
It does not matter the length of time between seeing one another, or what we
do, just the fact to be connecting over a stress-relieving-got-to-give-love-to-myself
kind of activity is all that matters. Looking forward to continuing to get to
know Bizzy’s genuine spirit as well as feel inspired by her deep regard for
life.
Leaf
Forty-nine: Staying In
You know you
have found someone great when you can spend a Friday and Saturday night doing
absolutely nothing and have no desire to be anywhere else in the world. From
the beginning, I have loved how much Dallas enjoys being social. I love going
out, meeting new people, grabbing a few drinks, and of course, letting loose on
the dance floor. Together, Dal and I have such a great time out. He has made my
transition to “adult life” feel less real by keeping me close to the 22 year
old world…haha…I enjoy so much being able to go out with him and his friends. On
the flip side, Dal and I have some of our best moments together alone simply
enjoying one another’s company. A couple
of weekends ago we decided to stay in. We watched movies, snuggled up close on
the couch. I never wanted it to end. I love, love, love spending my time
wrapped up in his arms, sometimes I think I could stay there forever and never
move. With each new day, I feel closer
to Dallas…I understand his heart a little better, love him a little more. This
is the most incredible feeling in the world…to know what a healthy, loving relationship
is. To be with someone who treats you absolutely amazing. Respects you.
Genuinely loves you. I feel empowered at the end of the day to be able to say “this
is what I deserve and this is what I will have forever”. Wherever the future
takes Dallas and I, the experience together has given me an invaluable gift for
the meaning of love, one that will stick with me always.
Leave Fifty:
2nd Tuesday of the Month
Last week I
met up with my girlfriend and colleague, Chelsea, for drinks and dinner in
Little Italy. We had not seen each other since the day we finished our graduate
program…needless to say, there was much to catch up on. After three hours of
chatting, a few too many glasses of wine and not enough food, we decided to
call it a night out of fear of a wicked hangover for a Wednesday morning.
I have been
incredibly fortunate to develop enduring relationships with genuine, soulful
people the last couple of years. Chelsea, no doubt, has maintained a constant
inspiration, example, and confidence since early on in my graduate program. She
is a beautiful woman, who has taught me a lot about loving myself. I appreciate
so much her courage to share her story with me. She has always made me feel comfortable
and supported. Meeting up last Tuesday was a reminder of how important
connection with good friends is in my life.
The last
four months have felt a bit lonely on the friend side. A transition to a new
job, family challenges, and developing a beautiful love interest, has resulted
in the loss of some who I thought I was close with. It has been frustrating,
while equally relieving. I have come to find out that the people who truly love
me, who know my soul, will continue to remain in my life. A couple years ago, I
do not know if I could have reached this same place. I would have been very
upset that someone was disappointed or mad at me. I am sad to lose
relationships, but I am also realizing what types of individuals are healthy
for me. One of thing I have learned and taken to heart from Dr. Brené Brown’s
work is the importance of setting boundaries and holding others accountable. As
I teach my client’s, setting boundaries is crucial to taking care of oneself.
Some people will not be accepting of our boundaries. We may lose those we
thought were the “closest” to us. But in the end, if we believe that we are worthy
and deserving of love, we will continue to seek out the people who truly bring
those things out in us and stimulate growth within our heart.
Chelsea has always
been a friend that has brought out the best in me. We seem to always challenge
one another to be better people, individually, and also in our relationships.
As I drove to meet up with her on Tuesday, I had this overwhelming feeling that
this needed to become a ritual. I put together in my head something like the 2nd
Tuesday of every month needed to be our time. The second I saw Chels, I ran the
idea by her…she was in. And like that, we created the “2nd Tuesday
of the month” girls get together. We are also passing along the invite to
another close friend, Jen. Because the fact is, we need people. And by people,
I don’t just mean anyone, but good people, who activate our soul. I am guilty
of not speaking up and holding others accountable. The consequence of that was
surrounding myself with people who made me feel judged and criticized. Life is
too short to be spent feeling uncomfortable with friends who are “supposed” to
love you for you.
Thursday, December 6, 2012
Leaf Forty-five, Forty-six, & Forty-seven: Cultivating a Healhty Life, Interior Decorating, & Spanglish
My blogging
efforts have been slightly delayed for the past several leaves, yet the mission
behind the journey is more at heart than ever before. There is not a week that
passes that I do not dedicate something specific for my next leaf. Thank you to
all my readers out there, for following, supporting, and inspiring me.
Leaf
Forty-five: Cultivating a Healthy Life
Since
beginning full-time work in September, one of my main goals has been focused on
establishing a healthy lifestyle, physically, mentally, and emotionally. From
the moment I entered my field, I knew I had started a unique type of work; one
that would challenge my heart on complicated levels. I have become committed to
sustaining a strength that reaches my mind and body. Searching for and cultivating that inner peace
has become a glorious, life changing ritual. Initially, fifty-two leaves
transformed my perception of the world around me. I began to encounter life
really living for the first time. As things have progressed, I have started to
notice the transition to a lifestyle that has become embedded in my soul. A
new found routine that is completely opposite than the perfectionism routine I
lived within for so long. Needless to say, it is pretty damn incredible look
back and recognize the growth that has permitted so many beautiful moments.
Back in
August, I blogged about starting a new exercise routine called The Bar Method.
I was raving about it four months ago, and I am still raving about it now. It
has transformed my body physically in a way that I never believed to be
possible. Mentally, I feel capable to take on situations that used to leave me
feeling overwhelmed and drained. Emotionally, it has allowed me to release the
negative energy of a long day. I know without a doubt that starting bar before
I began working was one of the greatest decisions I have ever made. It has
become so much more than an exercise routine and more so a way of life. I look
forward to attending class everyday and miss it when I do not go. For a long
time I struggled with my body image. There would be days that I stood in the
mirror pulling and “fixing” my body into a more appeasing type. I never seemed
to be able to lose enough wait or gain muscle. Well, I have not lost any
weight, but I have gained a physical, mental, and emotional strength that I would not trade for anything. I feel
comfortable in my own skin. I feel capable to overcome a long challenging day.
I feel prepared for what lies ahead.
I believe
that the physical endurance I have achieved has been made
possible because of the internal endurance I have been working on for over a
year. Although mental health often gets pushed on the back burner in many situations,
I know that separating mental and physical health is detrimental mistake to overall well-being. Unfortunately, mental illness has been deeply stigmatized in today's society. I have encountered many who have been fearful to reach out for help
because of the stigma. Personally as well as professionally, I have witnessed
inspiring amounts of courage from those who are willing to explore their inner
life. I think one of the hardest things we will have to overcome are the judgements we maintain about ourselves. It is a lot easier to get consumed with work, friends, school,
etc. than get to know and value who we are. If anything ever comes from
fifty-two leaves, I hope it encourages more to share their story. To choose to
value and love themselves, so they can love others more deeply.
A statement
that I use quite frequently with my clients is: “We can only love others as
much as we love ourselves”. I cannot exactly remember where I encountered that
quote, but nonetheless it has stuck with me. I only preach it because I know it personally.
As I have come to love myself, I have experienced a deeper, more respectful and
genuine love in my relationships with others.
Leaf Forty-six:
Interior Decorating
Six months
into my new apartment and four months in my new office and I finally added some
pizazz to my walls! I have found myself making excuses for not having enough
time to make both my room and office my own. As my fifty-two leaf journey
enters its final month, I felt inspired to do something out of my routine. To
get back to the true reason why this journey ever came about. One of my
favorite guideposts in Dr. Brené Brown’s book was on cultivating creativity.
She talked about how doing something creative makes us feel more alive. It does
not matter how artistic we are, what matters is that we are putting energy into
something that depicts us. I like to think of being creative as an expression
of my soul. It encourages me to move away from self-criticism and judgment and
freely represent myself. A few small
changes in my office shifted the atmosphere to my space rather than my
predecessor’s space. Last Friday after school, I kicked off my shoes, cranked
up some music and began moving things around. The new energy definitely shifted
onto the following week. I could tell that the students felt more comfortable
and I felt more at home. The same sort of feeling comes from my room. Walking
into a wall of pictures after a long day of work brings a smile to my face. My
“interior decorating” is far from perfect, but it is my own. And simply taking
a moment to be creative made for a wholehearted start to a new week.
Leaf
Forty-seven: Spanglish
Thanks to my
pretty fantastic-thoughtful-amazing boyfriend, I am finally taking the
initiative to learn Spanish. One of the greatest things about Dallas (yeah..I
know I’ve started a sentence with that a million times) is that he really
listens to what I say. I do not even remember how long ago I told him that I
wanted to take advantage of my commute to work by learning Spanish, nonetheless, he remembered as he was discovering the free podcasts on available on Itunes.
On there, he found some for Spanish lessons, and passed on the
information to me. So this week, I have spent my morning drive to work
learning Spanish. Obviously I have a long way to go, but I feel myself paying
better attention in the car than I ever did in high school. It is pretty
comical to listen to myself repeat the words back to the teacher. Lucky for me,
my boss and my co-worker speak Spanish fluently. I might have to dedicate a
leaf to finding the courage to test my words on them…haha. I will keep you all
posted. Thanks again to Dallas for motivating me to do something I have been
meaning to start a long time ago. He really does make me a better person, I am a lucky girl :)
Monday, November 26, 2012
Leaf Forty-four: Gratefulness
“Gratitude unlocks
the fullness of life. It turns what we have into enough, and more. It turns
denial into acceptance, chaos to order, confusion to clarity. It can turn a
meal into a feast, a house into a home, a stranger into a friend. Gratitude makes
sense of our past, brings peace for today, a creates a vision for tomorrow” –Melody
Beattie
Given last
week’s celebration of Thanksgiving, it is only fitting to dedicate this leaf to
gratitude. The quote above speaks quite perfectly to the incredible power
valuing and implementing daily gratitude practice has had on my life over the
course of the past year. It is moving to see how simply being thankful for this
beautiful world brings lasting clarity and peace to my soul. I have experienced
joy in a way that opens up my heart to people, places, and things I could not see
before. Each morning, I wake with a fondness for life, a love and passion for
my family, my job, and my relationships. What a blessing it is to know such a
deep hope and a strong sense of faith for what lies ahead.
Gratitude
brings provides much comfort when the rest of the world around me seems to be
spinning. The Thursday before Thanksgiving, I felt overwhelmed with emotion. It
was a mixture of concern for my dad combined with a long, meaningful week at
work. I struggled to put words to what I was experiencing internally, it was
not necessarily good or bad, it just was. The tears stirred during my drive
home, after my workout, and when I walked in the door. I settled in on my
bathroom floor and cried for awhile. There was something soothing to about
letting the tears flow and releasing what had been building up. Afterwards, I
felt very grateful to be able to feel things so deeply. To be able to encounter
such raw emotion without pushing it away is an incredible sensation. I am
thankful for my ability to connect to that part of my soul, to understand it,
and to look at those feelings without judgment or criticism.
I am
thankful to have met someone who I am able to give the kind of love that all
people deserve. Dallas has been an inspiring person in my life and given me an
opportunity to experience something incredible. To be a part of such a genuine,
respectful, passionate, real, and patient relationship will forever be one of
the greatest blessings I will ever know. I am thankful to be balanced and whole
within myself that I am able to encounter such a love. Each day I am especially
grateful for knowing Dallas. Gratitude for him has allowed me to stop worrying
about what the future holds and instead, engage fully in the moment of being
with one another. At the end of the day, sharing those moments with him are
what I am thankful for. My hope is that so many others have the opportunity to
know that kind of invaluable love.
Life has
felt crazy with my dad. His inability to recover has been so up and down since
the surgery it has been difficult to relax. Some days I fear the worst, others I
am angry with the doctors. I think underneath it all, I feel helpless and
unsure of how to handle everything. It
has made me re-evaluate a lot of things in my life, especially grasping onto
those things that are truly important, like my family. I am grateful to have
been able to see them the past couple of weeks. The trip home with Dallas and
then again last week for Thanksgiving were much needed. I am thankful to be
able to be there for my dad; to tell him that I love him and to hug him. It was
nice to be there at Thanksgiving because he seemed like his normal self around
all our family. He was laughing, teasing, and playing basketball with us like
he was feeling 100%. I am thankful for his example and strength. He has laid
the foundation for my independence as well as my ability to advocate for who I
am. The gratitude I have for his unconditional love and constant support is much
more than I can put into words.
I am also
very grateful for my mom and the relationship we have with one another. She has
been so strong throughout the process with my dad. I admire her hope and
courage and constant faith. I am thankful to be able to watch her and my dad grow
closer during this experience. It is amazing to witness the commitment and love
they have for one another. My mom has always been my biggest advocate as well
as a consistent form of unwavering support. Her love makes me one of the
luckiest girls in the world. I am blessed to have had a woman like her watch
over and guide me through my life.
Practicing
gratitude has allowed me to encounter joy and peace daily. It makes me a
stronger, more connected individual and gives me hope for a beautiful life
ahead.
Wednesday, November 21, 2012
Leaf Forty-three: Meeting the Family
A couple weekends ago, Dallas ventured home with me to Cedar City to meet my family for the first time. This was a big step for me because my close-knit family is a bit hesitant in letting significant others in..let's just say my brother's and I's past relationships have not always had the best reputation with my family..haha. I think my mom said it perfectly a while back though, she told me that she wouldn't be ready to let someone in, until she got the sense that they were the right person for us. Over the past five months, I have gotten to know someone who is absolutely incredible in many ways. Dallas continues to hold my heart with his outgoing spirit and genuine care for me. From early on, I got the sense that he would be able to handle and get along with my family better than anyone I had ever dated before. Though the nerves were there, the excitement to introduce my parents to the man that had captured my heart helped bring me to ease.
More than anything I was anxious to get home to see my dad. He had surgery a few weeks ago and the recovery process was taking longer than anticipated. For all of my life, my dad has always been my rock. I have never seen him anything but strong. Being so far away from home, feeling helpless and knowing he was not doing so well was really starting to get to me. I couldn't imagine my dad stuck in a hospital bed, and for those of you who know him, we all know he wasn't making the greatest patient. I was also somewhat scared to see him down and weak. Knowing my emotional self, I did not know if I would be able to keep it together, but feared my dad seeing me cry.
The day we left, I was so incredibly thankful to have Dallas by my side. His willingness to travel with me to Utah to be with my family meant so much. Since my dad had been put back into the hospital our trip home was a bit chaotic. My grandparents had to pick us up at the airport, then we met my mom, stopped at the hospital to see my dad, then finally made it to Cedar City. Dallas never once seemed to be uncomfortable. He went along with the crazy flow of things that , always squeezing my hand and kissing my forehead. Those simple gestures made everything okay throughout the trip.
Dallas fit in quite well with everyone. I could tell my mom was falling for his easy-going presence and kind heart. There is something about this guy that makes everything more fun, warmer, and a great time. For me, I enjoyed so much bringing him home...I knew this was different than in past relationships because I felt 100% at ease despite early nerves. Dallas is truly someone special. Someone I am so incredibly thankful to have in my life. He loves me in a way that I have never been loved before. We have developed a mutual respect for one another that seems to bring us closer each day.
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